From my experience, the first step to recovery would be opening up to yourself and talking to someone. It's tough at first; you wouldn't know where to start because there's so much on your mind. Whatever you say might not make sense to that person, but just let it run and say your thoughts. All of them. Even though they don't make sense. If telling people how you feel is tough, text them. That's what I did. Find the right person, the right listener, who wouldn't judge you or make you feel worse, someone who wouldn't mind listening to the same phrases over and over again because when you're depressed, you're trapped, and you'd keep repeating yourself, hoping to get it out of your chest.
The good thing is, after that whole lot of drama in your head, you'd slowly walk out of depression as a changed person. Every time. You'd let go of a part of yourself so that you could move on and adapt to the new environment. You'd let go of those stubborn thoughts. You'd learn to stop those unnecessary thoughts. At least for awhile until the next trigger hits you. The problem is maintaining this mindset. I'm still recovering, and I don't know when it'll hit me again, but I guess this time, I'm not afraid anymore because I have people who really care about me, who don't complain or judge my weird attitude or behavior during that depressing period, who'd just take in all the emotions I throw at them, who'd just listen to me or read my text over and over again and return with hugs.
This is the second time he has helped me recover from my depression because, even though he didn't say much, I can feel that he genuinely cares. Thanks Marc 💗
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